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Listening to Proud(concert ver) and reading this, is not exactly the best way to start a day..... proud of your love.

"TVXQ are Super Stars. They possess the ability to break cultural expectations, and their ability and performances as a team is something that has never been seen before in the history of South Korea. Maybe it'll never happen again in future, another team that possesses such all-rounded capabilities might never appear again. How is it possible to be so well-rounded in everything, from singing to entertaining, looks and even songwriting and compositions? Even in American history, this has never happened (before them)." --Bang Si-hyeuk (Composer & producer)

If only we can remain like this forever....
I miss dongbang

Mean, distant and cold.... there is no need for pretend...... cause i know deep down inside.. where all your defenses are let down, you're vulnerable and you're the one who needs the most LOVE.

if you really want it... just knock them down! 

quotes from www.weheartit.com..... loving this website more and more. I need to get back to studying soon.

Today will be a better day! 信じている!

I'm upset. VERY UPSET. None of the news i 've received today was good.
1) I got a freaking singles room for hostel.
2) I didn't get a korean buddy.
3) I hit the curb during circuit

I feel like going to the beach and drown myself in the sea. THERE IS NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD AT ALL. SUCKS. I can easily rip a person's head off right now. RARR.

Reality is hideous, never lovely, just plain tragic.

She grabbed his hair and pulled his head towards her.
“Get your father to take some fucking responsibilities.”

The Park bloodline: the cursed blood that contaminates my every cell.                
The surname which she grew to hate.

Her soulless eyes spoke of the weariness;
Of the burden she was made to bear;
The responsibility shoved to her,
The moment she was labeled “Mother”. 

There was no love. 

 I no longer laugh nor cry.

 Just a living zombie.
________________________________________

I am afraid of the consequence,
You, my light, my hope, will bring along. 

I fear of becoming human,
To bare my heart, and
Have it stabbed a million times
                        
You said everything will be fine, but
It is too good to be true. 
_____________________________


I hated you.

Hated you for your happy family,
Hated you for your contagious laughter,
Hated you for your angelic smile, and
For having no idea what crap I've went through.

You are everything I wanted to be,
Everything I wanted to possess, and
Everything that I am not.

Your presence is a heart-stabbing reminder of my feeble worth.
__________________________________________________

And yet, there is such a fine line between love and hatred.


When did my hatred dissolve?
&
When did it evolve into love?


Was it when you shed your first drop of tear in front of me?

You were crying.
Not for yourself…… but for me.

Why?

A stranger….
Who understood my anguish,
Who shed his tears for my wretched life,
Who swore to make me laugh again



Or was it the time,
When you gently encircled your arms from behind, around my trembling body?

 The rain was mercilessly pounding on us, and yet
 It could not extinguish the fire that spread through my entire body.

Like a fire let loose,
Emotions kept within the four walls of my heart burst into flames.

It burnt and filled my empty shell. 


With every rhythmic beat, volumes of blood pumped into every withering cell,
Bringing forth warmth as it proliferated through my capillaries in every direction.

You’ve revived my motionless heart, mind and soul.



Bit by bit, a drop by a drop, you've diluted my pool of hatred……



“Let’s what?” I stuttered. 

No way.
It was impossible.

I shook my head furiously, unable to comprehend.
I bit onto my trembling lips, sealing my whimper within. 

Blurred vision; with tears threatening to overflow,
I stared at him in disbelief.


You took a deep breath.

“I said, let's get married. “


Holding the pair of trembling hands,
Your tender eyes locked with my dilated iris.

“Yoochun, will you marry me?”

Staggering backwards, and
At that instant,
I’ve forgotten how to breathe.

The promise. The security. The peace.
Do you know how long I had waited to hear those words?


A new sensation;
A cold metal kiss;
A mark of possession;

I belong to you, only you.
Simply junsu’s.
 


 



 

I've never thought that going to uni was this troublesome! I'm overwhelmed by the amount of admin stuff i have to settle before the commencement of sem 1. To make things more complicated, i have to settle EVERYTHING before 23rd july. I will be checking into Hall on that fateful day. There will be a bloody 2 weeks long orientation CAMP. Yes, it is a CAMP. MY GREATEST FEAR. Drag me to hell now. NO, sorry. i was joking. I want to go to heaven.

I'm emotionally drained. goodbye.

Another update! I played tennis with my OG mates. It sparked my interest in tennis. =) I wanna play tennis with the trackers!

I skipped piano lesson. YES. piano. the instrument which i stupidly acted to be very passionate about. i should just stop chasing after chun's shadow. The truth is, i am nowhere like him. goodbye to my forty bucks.

After tennis, do you know where my OG went to? you will never guess it. They decided to play golf. Yes, it is not a typo. it is G-O-L-F. I feel like some kid from the countryside. thanks. 

I HATE MYSELF. HATE MYSELF FOR HAVING STUPID THOUGHTS. HATE MYSELF FOR BEING EMO.
get a life sennie tan.

I'm so drained. I was too high in starbucks. coffee was nice and jayce sucks. We had a wonderful heart to heart session together. HOW GREAT. So we were like talking about DBSK. I was so sick of talking about them thus we decided to change the topic and discussed about our lives instead. And guess what? It came back to DBSK again. Someone just slap us. My life is revolving around them. Had to admit it whether i like it or not. Well, i need a distraction from them! Where the hell is my destined one? Jayce please do not comment and say that chun is the destined one alright? i will murder you. HAHA. i am facing a crisis now! i need warmth. A hug? A kiss? ANYTHING! 

ps: excess exposure to Jayce is bad for health